Tonight, I felt extra unworthy. I felt extra hopeless, meaningless, insignificant, worthless, sinful, dirty. I felt ashamed, alone, and abandoned and done for. The enemy fed me lies, whispered doubts in my ears, and gave me images of my inescapable distraught.
But something called me to pray. The Spirit called me to my knees in repentance and in utter dependence. No, not to pray a wordy, eloquent prayer, rich of fruitful sentences, but to call out to the only one who can save me from this pit. There is so much power in the name of Jesus. And that’s all I could say. It’s as if that’s the only word I knew at the time. “Jesus, Jesus, JESUS, JESUS” It hurt so bad, because I just felt so inadequate and embarrassed to call out His name.
But I felt grace, blanketing over me and covering my sins, my shame, my fears, my anxieties. He was covering my shame for me. Why though?! I don’t understand. Continuously I turn against you, forget about you and blatantly choose worldly desires over you.
"You are my creation. You are my daughter. You are mine.”
I sinned last year, I sinned yesterday, I sinned today, I will sin tomorrow, and I will probably sin the rest of my life until the day I meet Jesus. But do not dwell on sin, but understand the true meaning of grace. The reason for the cross. The very reason for Jesus Christ.
Ephesians 2:4-9 But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast
"by grace you have been saved"
"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast"
We can’t do anything in this life to make God love us more or less. His love is already unconditional.
Got it, Diane?